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Too Fast & Blurred

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When the days pass so fast, when they’ll filled with only work, close friends and love, when I can hardly stop to catch a breather and end up ill in bed – that’s how my life has been for the past couple of weeks. Even with all the work though, I’m still living the days filled with thanks – thankful and lucky to be running things our way, to work from home and have the flexibility to rest when I want to. Grateful that the pace has picked up as well -I’d rather be worked to the bone than to not have anything to work for.

My days have been filled with the vast sky, clouds, wild flowers, and endless walking. I find myself walking from one destination to the next, and albeit the ache-inducing weight of my laptop that I carry on my shoulder, I find it heartening when a voice inside of me tells me to press on, and that I will not regret this when I am older. I guess I’m lucky to still be quite childlike, a word that was used to describe me by J. Childlike to still enjoy the little details in life, to always be hopeful for the best, to still be able to pick myself up eventually after a long week of work. It’s not to say that I don’t have my moments of darkness, when my heart is filled with a sense of futility and as though nothing will ever work out – yes, I sometimes get so overwhelmed that I can’t bear the thought of carrying on.

The secret to this though, is getting through those moments of darkness, and realizing that there are wonders to live for, beauty to admire, and so much hope and positivity around us. Even if you’re being unfairly judged or criticized, even if you’re surrounded by so much negativity that your body physically breaks down (yes, me), you get back up and keep going. You persevere and remind yourself of why you chose this path, and you envision the light at the end of the tunnel. My light at the end of the tunnel is my three week trip to Busan/Seoul in less than a month, and there’s going to be so much to share!

Not a regular post of mine, but I thought I’d share my reflections of the past couple of weeks, as a personal reminder and hopefully one for you as well. Remember the good, remember hope, remember beauty. To a September filled with love, laughter, friends, jokes, and plenty of adventures and lessons to be learnt.

What is Family?

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Faces that mean so much to me, that have so much of my heart tied to them.
Family – what exactly is family? To me, my family does not just incorporate individuals I’m linked to by blood. My family are the people I trust my life with, and despite it being an extremely select few, I know that I am blessed and so lucky to have them. As the year draws to a close, the one thing that I am the most grateful for is¬†family. For the love that my friends have shown me, and for finding my person this year. 2013 was a year of ups and downs, and the one year that I finally learned the meaning of being in a proper relationship and being in love. My two best friends are the two ladies I know I can always turn to, who won’t judge me, and who despite our differences, we can always forgive and forget, and still be there for each other. Distance is not an issue, we somehow manage to show love and grace to each other in our times of need. Family are those who make you feel safe, who love you despite all your failures and flaws, and who do not judge. Family are those who accept you for you, and who love you unconditionally.

In 2013, I found J. I found love & sappily enough, he’s my person who will choose me over everything else, and even with my fears and insecurities, he still stays by my side, reassuring me over and over. Even when my demons come back to haunt me, I’m safe when I’m with him, and I don’t think I’ve felt this way ever. That safety is something that means the world to me, and in 2013, that was what I received.

2013 — ups and downs, personal and business lessons. I know that I have to keep pressing on, constantly motivate myself, and to discipline myself a lot more. I can’t wait for 2014, because somehow, I have the feeling that year on year, my life is going to be filled with a lot more love, joy, faith and amazing experiences.¬†Everyone’s on a path of betterment, of self improvement, of change, of love, of life, of trust. It has been such a life-changing year, as always.

Thank you for everything, for watching over me, for keeping me and all the people I love safe, for forgiving me, for believing in me. Thank you & I am blessed.

PS — I’m waiting for my Danielle LaPorte Desire Workbook to arrive before I start working on the 2014 resolutions & core desired feelings. I mean, I’ll have a couple of days before 2014 really arrives, no? ;)